well well well........ loser loser loser loser loser loser loser losr ........... with these words echoing in my ears, well they r just being repeated theres no echo but when a crowd of say about hundred and fifty thousand ppl say it , it gets an echo effect. and when this voice is in ur head one usually uses this particular figure of speech.
so back to my point, i m no schizo but hav this voice inside my head, reason being i m a lazy arse with no ambition no plans and no fucking desire to do anything in life. like my folks said yesterday i just push eveybody around me to their limits not mine, so that they finally give up on me and tell me u r a loser and u r incapable of anything. and thats when i acually make any effort to make my much awaited come back.
if i cud possibly have an out of body experience i wud hate myself and kick my arse. 'much awaited come back'? my foot!! i mean ek insaan khud ko kitna importance dega..
i mean, here i am sitting on my bum pretending to search for a job online!! when infact i have contacts of certain ppl who can give me a job but i m not even approaching them. i have too high expectations from myself and i know wat my dream job is gonna be but i m not even trying to go for it either. btw somebody else i know has got my dream job and i hate them..................... jealousy is my second name
i suffer from the most deadly diseases that mankind has not been able to find a remedy for 'complacency and procrastination.......................